just want to say something

marriage

pembicaraan anak kosan di sore hari.
entah apa yang pertama kali kami bicarakan, di meja segiempat yang berukuran sedang di lantai tiga, tiba-tiba kami membicarakan tentang pernikahan.
"junior gue di singapore, baru beberapa minggu atau bulan di singapore tiba-tiba balik ke medan buat nikah", ujar salah seorang teman
"..........teman seangkatan gue juga mulai dari pengumuman uan gitu udah jarang kelihatan dan pas prom gak dateng ternyata lagi sibuk ngurusin penikahannya", cerita seorang teman lainnya. 
"waktu itu gue ngelihat di facebook foto junior gue itu, kayak foto candid gitu, si cewek sama cowok lagi bertatapan dan kelihatan kayak bahagia banget gitu", teman gue cerita dengan semangatnya

"ah gue capek kuliah, capek belajar, pengen nikah aja"
pernah gak kalian ngomong begitu? gue sih sering denger kata-kata itu dari teman-teman deket gue di kuliah, tapi itu ya cuma omongan iseng belaka (atau sebenernya emang jeritan hati? entahlah)
teman-teman dari teman-teman gue itu menikah diumur yang sangat belia. tujuh belas sampai delapan belas tahunlah usianya. saat ini gue delapan belas jalan sembilan belas tahun. memikirkan menikah diumur sebelia ini benar-benar nightmare buat gue. gue aja yang kuliah, yang seharusnya bisa melakukan banyak hal dan bersosialisasi, ketemu banyak orang, dapat banyak pengalaman, tidak melakukan dan mengalami apa yang seharusnya orang seumuran gue lakukan, memanfaatkan masa mudanya dengan sebaik-baiknya. ya, sebenernya bukan berarti orang yang menikah di umur (sangat) muda itu hidupnya jadi terkekang gitu, tapi ya pasti berbedalah dengan yang belum menikah. Dari cerita teman gue, mereka yang menikah itu tidak melanjutkan sekolah. mereka ada yang membantu suami dan berbisnis atau ya tidak melakukan apapun.

gue sendiri tidak ingin menikah sebelum lulus dan mendapatkan kerja. kuliah di S1 masih tiga tahun lagi, ditambah satu tahun untuk keprofesian. belum lagi kalau ternyata nanti gue tertarik untuk S2 (entahlah ya). dan gue harus kerja dulu, punya penghasilan dulu, baru mau menikah. benar-benar tidak terasa sekali kalau gue sudah mau 19 tahun (24 hari lagi!). Tidak terasa itu sudah tahun terakhir berkepala satu. tidak terasa sudah sebesar ini, setua ini. sebenarnya tidak terasa, sebentar lagi gue dapat undangan pernikahan dari teman-teman seangkatan. time flies like an arrow. kalau gue pribadi, ingin sukses dulu, ingin belajar banyak hal, ingin punya banyak pengalaman sebelum terikat oleh janji seumur hidup. masa muda tidak datang dua kali. tidak berarti kalau nikah muda jadi gak menikmati masa muda sih, tetapi pasti beda kan rasanya?

This very moment, right here and now

Begins the journey of my dreams On to forever, hand in hand With the one who matters most to meI have tomorrow to look forward to For God has given me you

To have and to hold

To cherish and honor To love and call my very own To share all I am with Body, heart and soul You are mine as I am yours To have and to hold

pictures taken from  axioo.com

lyric: to have and to hold  

passion in fashion

I wish my passion is in fashion.
I love clothes. I love shoes. I love bags. I am not a fashionista exactly, but recently, I love these kind of things.
I just wish if only I can buy everything that I want. I wish I can go shopping every single day. I wish I can travel around the world, buy fashion things in the different country. 
If I can choose what my tallents are, I want to be good in designing and making my own clothing line, design shoes and also bags. I want to be good in mix max everything I own in my wardrobe. I want to be brave, to make my own style and being different.
I also interested in make up recently. I thing I wanna buy some make-up things like foundation, mascara, blush on, lipgloss, and some nails polis colored in neon.
I think that fashion is an interesting thing. It doesn't have to be a passion actually. everybody is a stylist for themselves.
"what you wear is how you present yourself to the world. Fashion is like playground, cause there is no rules. You can play with colours, be silly and nutty with different styles. Fashion is dress up how you feel."

except

Life is very very good. I love it. too much.

I maybe have everything that I want

except...........you

buy me them then I love you

check this out!

buy me them then I love you

can't take my eyes off you

so lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go
this feeling I'm feeling is something I've never known
and I just can't take my eyes off you


I don’t know but I think I maybe fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I know you better
I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do I think I’m fallin’ for you

random things

I wish I can go shopping every single day

......I wish I can see you sooner

I love the way camera capture the memories

I want to loose some weight, not for others, but for myself

currently, I love shoes, I love seeing pictures about shoes and someday I will be a shoes collector

........I want to hold your hand, so let me hold your hand

pictures taken from my tumblr, reblog from other

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect – your aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break – her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there